Sunday, September 1, 2013

A day to remember

Prologue

My original reason for coming to Switzerland was to climb Mt. Blanc and paraglide from the top with a handful of pilots from the Wings of Kilimanjaro expedition that took place last February. During my planning, I found out my college friend Whitney would be WWOOFing around Switzerland at the same time. After buying my tickets, the Mt. Blanc expedition fell through, so I decided to join up with Whitney and make a casual pack-and-fly trip of it. 

One of my favorite new friends from WOK was Phil Glutz, an Aussie now living in Zermatt, Switzerland to run a paragliding operation. 

After the porter mutiny and weather disaster on Kili, I had tried to pull together a low-budget, DIY para-safari in Tanzania with a choice few of the great people I'd met there, hoping to get in a little more flying and African adventure before heading back to our respective countries. Organizing anything in Africa is not easy, let alone on a budget. But Phil was the guy who pulled out his GPS and laptop before I knew it and set right to work helping us geo-tag potential flying sites to hunt down in our Land Cruisers over the next few memorable days. I was so impressed by his energetic, positive attitude, I eagerly looked forward to the day our paths would cross again. So Zermatt was the first place I headed after arriving in Switzerland.

Whitney tried to meet me in Lausanne so we could head up together, but she missed the train by a matter of seconds and had to take a later one. While I was waiting for her to arrive, I walked out of the train station into the tiny village square knowing basically nothing about Zermatt. Clouds trailed from the lee side of the Matterhorn, and the air smelled fresh and sweet.

Nearly adjacent to the train station I found the tiny paraglider shop, which emanated a distinct surfer vibe, sporting bamboo trim and populated by scruffy guys in their 30s and 40s chilling on the couch or fiddling with flying gear. A guy named Ronnie pulled out a map of the town and a blue pen and scribbled out for me the flying pattern, landing zone, and no-fly zone where choppers often fly. 

I thanked him and headed across the tracks to the LZ, a tight grassy spot wedged against the steep valley wall and practically on top of the train station. Before long Phil and a couple other pilots came spiraling down out of the sky and settled gingerly on the short grass. We exchanged a hearty hug, and he welcomed me to Switzerland.

The next two days I logged perhaps the most incredible flights of my life, soaring with Phil and the birds, just walking distance from the Matterhorn (videos to come).

Yesterday, though, was one of those stranger-than-fiction stories I can hardly describe with words.

The Villa

Friday night Phil, Whitney, and I headed to a local hangout with really good live music. Phil, who plays alto sax, said he had played with the drummer of the band we were listening to. 

"He tours with some really big names," Phil said. "A lot of famous artists play here because nobody recognizes them."

A wild-bearded guy came and had an enthusiastic chat with Phil that I couldn't hear, then leaned over to me and shouted over the music with a grin, "Whatever he asks you, just say yes!"

"Yes!" I shouted back to Phil. He smiled and explained, "I've got this friend Vince who's restoring an old villa over in Italy. He's a crazy guy. It's sort of a hippie commune, and there's a music festival going on in the town right now. I'd have to come back early the next morning to fly, but we could go over tomorrow evening and check it out."

While hippie villas aren't the first thing I go looking for when traveling, I smelled a really good story, one way or the other.

The amazing day began with Whitney and me hiking to the foot of the Matterhorn in the morning. We climbed to nearly 10,000 feet just to stare up in disbelief at it's otherworldly cliffs and sculpted point gouging the blue alpine sky above us. A glider swirled up a thermal against the horn, and a helicopter came to hover near enough to the summit to blast billowing clouds of snow down the cliffs. I kept reminding myself I was there, and it was all real.

We had just enough time after arriving back at Phil's top-floor apartment to grab our sleeping bags and head out the door. Phil grabbed his sax too. He'd never been to the villa during the music festival, but like a true musician, he was ready for anything.

We drove to a train, paid a toll, and then drove onto the train, which we rode like a ferry for 20 minutes through a tunnel in the dark bowels of the Alps into Italy. 

We emerged from the tunnel into a canyon punctuated by ancient, roofless ruins growing vines like flower boxes. As we entered the city, peeling paint clung to the scruffy stone buildings, and young punks in tight jeans smoked cigarettes leaning against their street bikes. The graffiti, which would have been obscene in Switzerland, seemed to belong there as much as the tall clock towers ticking away their fourth or fifth centuries. 

Twilight settled as we climbed a winding mountain road to a dirt road, to a grassy footpath that wound along the edge of a small, wild-looking hillside vineyard. There the enchanted white villa stood, tucked back into the trees like the other ruins we'd seen, but alive with an exciting rustic charm. 

Vince, Phil told us, crushed his own grapes there and made his own wine. He'd been "hired" to restore the villa for an absentee landlord, but Phil said it was probably more something done out of charity for Vince than for investment.

A lithe border collie bounded to meet us, and half a dozen guys milled around in the half-light by the giant, metal-studded wooden doors. They all began shaking our hands with happy Italian gusto, though accents and languages spoken spanned the globe. An older, wrinkled man stood shirtless in the evening cool with a long gold chain hanging from his neck. A very young guy with a strong Italian accent shook my hand and translated for the older man. 

Vince was a short character, with super curly hair and leathery hands that flew about with energy. Luna, the border collie followed us into the villa for a tour. Phil led the way with a headlamp since there was no electricity. 

It felt like a glorious museum someone had moved into--an odd mixture of architectural opulence wrapped around humble means but warmed by thriving creative energy. Someone told me Vince could hardly read and write, but nobody could do what he could do with wood. The floors and ceilings were newly restored, but still felt centuries old. We climbed the stone stairs to find rooms furnished with large cabinets and even wooden sculptures. My inner photographer screamed that I was experiencing a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, but my camera was locked away back in the car, and the light was of that sparseness that scorns cameras and sets fire to the imagination. 

Vince took a candle and took us all down another stone staircase, beneath the earth to the cellar. He hung it from an iron ring on the wall to flood an arched alcove with sepia glow, then opened another pair of wooden doors to reveal an even smaller room with a gravel floor. The other guys crowded in and seated themselves on derelict wine barrels next to a photograph of Vince's 13-year-old daughter Olivia. 

"This is my club!" Vince proclaimed with satisfaction. Soon guitars, drums, and cigarettes were being passed around, along with a cracked ceramic bowl that Vince repeatedly filled with his homemade wine. It tasted delicious and totally uncouth, a perfect liquid leitmotif of the house he was nursing back to life.

Luna lay at our feet while songs echoed off the walls and flooded the smoky cavern like the candlelight. After a long time of singing and playing, they decided to start the night and head to the festival. 

The Shaman

We ambled through the forest in a trail of lights toward a cacophony of much louder music. Those of us there for the first time were surprised to discover a huge festival going on, complete with tent city, generators, and three separate stages. 

Another one of our companions told us that Vince was the mascot of the music festival, which was called "Il Clan dello Sciamano" (The Clan of the Shaman). He would dress up and dance around with a big, crazy bow and arrow. 

We joined the hundreds of people crowding around the main stage to hear an African band singing in Italian and playing totally unrecognizable instruments with admirable virtuosity. 

I'll admit that shaman clans are not exactly my usual scene, as much as I love music, but there's something really wonderful about being able to fling oneself so far out of the normal and predictable that it's almost like walking on another planet. Hours before, I wasn't even planning on being in that county, let alone crashing a music fest with everyone's favorite shaman.

My favorite moment of the night came in the wee hours of the morning down at the "jam" stage, a little hut in the trees next to a campfire where musicians passed the mic around and handled their own sound board. 

We stood listening to a long, minor-key reggae jam between some pretty talented musicians. One of our group had tipped them off that there was a sax player in the crowd, and they began urging him up to the stage, still weaving out their mellow groove. After some prodding, Phil finally succumbed and took his sax up to the mic. The whole place came to new life when he crooned out the first few notes.  He danced in and out of the rhythm and fanned the song into something fantastic it hadn't even approached. The guitar player and vocalists took interludes, but for the next 45 minutes or an hour Phil's sax carried the mood away into a place only he could take it. 

When sleep finally hung heavily on us, we wandered back through the forest to the villa. All around us the Italian Alps jutted up into the starry sky to frame the Milky Way between layers of dark forest and white strata, and the night was warm.

Phil and I slept in a tent on top of the grassy hill next to the villa, and Whitney slept on the folded down seats of Phil's Subaru. Four hours later, we packed up and started back toward Zermatt so Phil could make his 9:00 tandem flight. I had wanted to get a good picture of the villa in the morning, but we left in the same dim half-light in which we'd arrived. I guess it will forever remain a magical memory shrouded in shadow and lit from within. 

Back in Zermatt, I walked blearily through the streets with my camping stuff into the grocery store where a woman was just pulling the bread and pastries out of the oven to put in their bakery bins. I took a hot pastry and loaf of bread and warmed my hands with them on the way back to Phil's apartment, where I hoped to get a little more sleep before starting the day. The smell of the pastry engulfed me with the same warmth and richness as my sleeping bag when I drifted off into strange and wonderful dreams.




Friday, August 30, 2013

What I want to be when I grow up


"What do you want to be when you grow up?" someone asked my big brother. 

"A curtain!" he replied with three-year-old enthusiasm. I feel this is a good metaphor for a lot of people's lives, at least those who still can't say they've got life all figured out. We may have images of things we like, things we'd love to associate ourselves with, but that search for something to do, something to be, remains as difficult as trying to become a curtain.

Along with the Internet, I'll bet this part of history will become famous for the quarter-life crisis. People used to dive into a job and family and then wonder if they'd missed something along the way. Now we survey the Grand Canyon of choices available after college and nearly pee our pants. Should we listen to Kerouac, Frost, or our parents as we reach sweaty palms for the magic door to who we will become for ever and ever into the future? 

My crisis probably came to a head a few years ago when all these questions and options seemed ready to tear me apart. I had double-majored in college (Solution 1: keep all the doors open as long as possible). After working a job for a couple years that I didn't like, I had applied for grad school (Solution 2: delay the choice longer), and been rejected (smack!). So I did what young Christians in the know do and applied to The Trinity Forum Academy fellowship (Solution 3: hope someone else can divine my purpose in life for me). Two mentors, 11 classmates in the same boat, and countless discussions later, I had "started asking better questions." So I did what insecure TFA graduates in the know do and joined the staff for a year (cheat a little and repeat Solution 2--ha!) while applying for grad school a third time (1+2).

But something did happen there at the Academy that changed things for me. A seed was planted. I made a list of all the things I've done that I've loved, the things that made me feel most satisfied, whether they had anything to do with making money or not. As I contemplated it and talked to friends who knew me well, several realizations occurred.

1: There is a difference between occupation and identity. Few indeed are those who find them in the same place, and not necessarily to be envied.

2: Life keeps happening while you're trying to decide what it should look like.

3: We tend to overrate the points of arrival we strive for (college acceptance, promotion, tenure, awards, retirement).

4: My career will probably change many times, regardless of what previous generations say is or should be true.

These dots weren't easy to connect, but once I started nailing things down, I came to a breakthrough conclusion: I'm supposed to be a Swiss Army Knife! (My brother the curtain would be so jealous.)

This is not the solution for every person, only for me. I loved journalism, economics came naturally to me, literature seeped through my veins, physics flirted with my imagination, everything slid down into theology, and my magnifying glass doubled as a screwdriver. It was so clear; these all had nothing to do with each other, but God was actually OK with me carrying them all around and whipping them out whenever the circumstances called for something He had built into me. 

I think some people are given inhuman endurance so they can plough through decades of adversity to achieve an unbelievable goal. Others are given genius so they can invent something the world needs. I was given insatiable curiosity and not enough skill to hide my identity in any single occupation. 

That frustrated me to no end, until I realized that God wanted me to put my identity in Him and accept the gift of doing what I love to do, to His pleasure. 

I've always felt satisfied after writing--writing about anything and everything. But to be a good writer you have to have things to write about. It's took me the better part of 30 years to even begin to suspect that God might provide  my heart's desire as the answer to the conundrum of work and identity. I had to realize that not only is work different from identity, it's different from life. 

Work is the devotion we feel to do those hard things we find give God pleasure and satisfy us. It's the reason why my brother and I couldn't resist building epic sandcastles if we were at the beach, and why guys tinker on cars. 

Wait, that's not work! That's fun. Hardly anybody enjoys work today, right? 

I still think work is not a place we go, but a thing we do. We may hate our job, but some deeper purpose keeps us there, like getting out of debt or providing for a family. Work is hardwired into us. Many people who retire have a three-quarter-life crisis and go nuts because they're not satisfying their deep need to work. 

My life could take any number of sharp turns, and it probably will. But I've begun to grasp that God has made me as a weird conglomeration of seemingly random (and small) skills and knowledge. I've begun to enjoy watching for those moments when He calls me to pull out my blade or file and get to work. I like the thrill of the unexpected turns and challenges. I like the variety that keeps everything interesting. I know I can work really hard, but all along I was looking for work to be my answer, my escape from the bigger question of identity. 

Seeing this knife in the shop today made me smile deep down inside and appreciate that even I, a Swiss Army Knife can be worth something. (Almost as much as a Swiss watch!)

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Bourne vs. Bond

8/27/13

The Bourne movies have always haunted me. They mirror something inside--a minor-key wanderlust to find out who I am. When some people think of globetrotting and adventure, James Bond comes to mind. A martini on a yacht in Monaco, or baccarat at a casino in the Caribbean. Suave and always in good humor, he's at home anywhere (though preferably with supermodels). Bourne, on the other hand, moves about in the world of gritty train stations, hidden city flats, and snowy mountain highways in search of home, of identity and companionship. 

I didn't really plan anything for this trip through Switzerland because amazing things happen to me when I lose myself into that abyss of chance and strangers. A tried-and-true rule of thumb in story-writing is, the higher the stakes, the better the story. It's amazing to watch what happens when we let the spontaneity of chance breathe fresh air through the cobwebs of our habitual choices and comfort. Maybe that means a sleepless night by the side of a highway, but it's only then that the stars blaze in a way we never forget. 

More often, though, wonderful things happen. I arrived at the Geneva airport yesterday afternoon and somehow found my way into the city. After my last Facebook post, a friend of mine named Sanja offered me a place to stay for a couple nights in Nyon, just east along the lake, and right on my travel route to the mountains of Zermatt. There I hope to see Phil, a paraglider pilot I met on Kilimanjaro, and do some flying. I met Sanja in Chicago a couple years ago, where she was working for the Swiss consulate and rooming with a good friend of mine.

This morning's sun beckoned me down hushed cobblestone streets, past trickling fountains, to a tall white chateau overlooking the lake. Below its courtyard a maze of slate rooftops shaded geranium balconies and tiny immaculate gardens. I bought a loaf of bread and some cheese, which I ate beneath an old ruin of columns left over from the Roman settlement thousands of years ago. A large boat flying a French flag left the marina below for the other side of the lake with a long blow of its horn. Bread should be eaten straight from the loaf like that. It's so delicious by itself, but we treat it as filler or something to hold a sandwich together. The inside was so moist it stuck to my fingers, and the crust was just barely bitter like a good dark beer.

A while later I went to a corner cafe for an espresso to fight the jet lag. The short, elderly woman who ran the place didn't speak any English whatsoever, but a lady at a nearby table enjoying a glass of wine helped me translate and struck up a conversation with me, even offering me a glass of wine. She taught me some French and got very excited about me paragliding around Switzerland. Her name was Gabriela, and she just retired to Nyon from Geneva.

The first thing you see at the Geneva airport is ads for Swiss watches. I've always wondered what could be so special about something that just tells time, I mean $20,000 special. Even the streets in Nyon are lined with watch shops. I watched a movie on the way over about holding on to immortality or living just once, but living that life bravely. Time always seems to surprise us, which Lewis and Vanauken say proves eternity is our natural habitat. I wondered, if my life were a watch, what would it look like? Would I have a hand that counts every second? Would there be some scratches on the bezel? Waterproof?

My friend Davita once asked me what was one of my big fears. I couldn't think of anything for three days. Then I realized it was wasting time, not living life to its fullest, whatever that looks like. 

The other thing that's everywhere in Switzerland is chocolate, and it's expensive. I'm on a bread/water/hitchhiking budget, but as a tightwad I often have to remind myself that life's meant to enjoy good things too, not just get by. So I have a bar of noir orange Belgian chocolate to get me through the next few days. 

That's the update for now. Hopefully the next few days will bring some soaring over the Alps!

-Graham




Friday, August 23, 2013

Oh no, another blog in the blogosphere...

I have looked forward to starting a blog like getting a root canal, but I think I've avoided it about as long as I can.

The web can't compete with handwritten postcards that smell of far away places and beaten-up journal pages with runny ink. But reality declares that this new medium deserves some attention, especially from those shooting digital pics and vids, which I hope to do more and more this coming year.

Hopefully this blog will move soon, somewhere more cozy and permanent. But as usual, time is short. The day after tomorrow I fly from Reno to Salt Lake, Salt Lake through the starry night to Paris, and from Paris to Geneva, where I will put out my thumb and haul my paraglider and sleeping bag toward the mountains with hopes of capturing a few of those immortal moments of inspiration we all treasure. Where the aroma of coffee mixes with WiFi, I'll do my best to send them back.

As I've discovered them, I've been hording those glimmering gems in a dozen journals, countless scribblings, and a hundred thousand camera clicks. My hope is to start letting them free here like I haven't done before--some old and dusty, some freshly cut, and some still hidden in crust. Tonight I pack for the journey. Glad to have some of you along to share those scintillating glints...

The lights begin to twinkle from the rocks: 
The long day wanes: the slow moon climbs: 
the deep Moans round with many voices. 
Come, my friends...